Sad Girl

I honestly
Thought that you despised me
And not even overtly
Just in the little ways
I imagine that I bore you
Or bother you by being me
Or not by being me enough 
I'll presume to leave the road clear 
It's the least that I can do
To show respect to you
Because if I'm not a bonus
And can't provide a reason
Then my inherent value 
Is less than nothing new

Isn't it annoying
This pity that I place 
I've made up your mind for you
And taken up this space 
Not for any reason and 
Not for me at all
But I don't think I'm worthwhile
So why do i still wish you'd call